Holy fuck. I haven't been on here in forever. I was bored and just decided to visit and see what I wrote back in the day. Wow, I was lame. But reading it reminded me of some really hard times I had. I can remember how I felt while typing these messages. Even though i was younger and immature, I was dealing with some pretty big and bad things. But thanks to all of you who commented me and helped me through it! And, Mike, whoever/wherever you are! special thanks to you...

I had my first dance recital and it was awesome!!! I messed up so much but it was so fun!! ahhh HYPER HYPER HYPER!!! ;ALSDKJF;ALSDJKF;ALDKJF;LSJD;FL DANCING IS FUN!!! ;ASLDJF;ALSDKJF;LASDKJF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if only you knew what you saved me from...

I'm quite tired today...Didn't really do anything...just in one of those "I don't feel like moving, dont talk to me, don't ask me to explain anything to you cuz if you do I'll hurt you (no i wont cuz im too lazy)" moods. Wow. I'm tired...and obviously delirious.

I hate how everything is right now. It seems like my entire world is falling apart but if I look out the window, there is still a little bit of the real world left that I just can't get to. I keep reaching for the latch on that window, but somebody's always holding me back and dragging me further and further into the darkness.
What would happen if I could actually reach that latch? What would happen to me if I could climb out of that window and step into the real world again?